So, today is my grandma's 70th birthday..all of the family gather together which sums up to 200 people. Yeah, that much. Oh btw, its 2.05am, the exact time I'm writing this blog. Okay, most shocking moment ever, my ex text me. No, not Jessica, but my other ex. MY EX-GUY! ALERT! EX! GUY! A GUY! hahahah, shocker. Well, me and him did get together, we both live in P'pang. But guess what? We only got together for 3 DAYS! Why? Oh come, like I said, I can't be in love with guys. So, he text me today, we began to text, well, I ask him to come to the party but he's shy. Oh well. We did meet for a while though, I have to walk like few meters away from the house just to meet him. It was our first meeting too. I think I'm taller than him, hah! LOL! oh, its 2.10am! Hehe! Continue on, my gosh it was so awkward meeting him. After the meet, well, he began to text and call me. Replied text but a call? Man I don't know what to say. I don't know how to communicate with guys other than my cousins or my close friends.
The reasons why I broke up with him are:
- He's a guy. I'm gay, so.. nada.
- It's too awkward
- When I'm with him, he text like every second.
- He calls everyday, I don't know what to say if we text then he called.
- I don't want to break his heart knowing that I can't like/love him.
Hmm..well, I did broke his heart though when I broke up with him. I feel so wrong and now I feel more wrong than ever if he keeps on texting or calling me. I can't deal with this any longer. For all I know, all I want is Jessica to be with me again. I only want her. But I guess, she never want to talk to me again, guess that she found someone else *sigh*
