Best BIRTHDAY EVERRRRRRR :'D

So this person was born on the 10th of July 1991, 5.30am, healthy and yeah, crying a lot. She was named Jacinta Lontue E. Jominol by her grandparents on her father's side, and on sunday the 10th, she turned 20! That person is me :) A year older, a year wiser. Hehe. So on sunday, celebrated my birthday with my three sisters, Candice, Gracie and Nana. We went to Upperstar. Crazy thing happened? Yeah Candice and Nana were goofing around with the computer, and Nana hit this button which makes the computer to QWERTYUIOP! Funny times. And oh yeah, they made me open my present, man twas HUGE. Well, guess what? THEY GAVE ME A STUFFED PENGUIN! WAIT..I REPEAT THAT, A HUGE STUFFED PENGUIN! Twas from Candice, Gracie and Dora :') Thank you so much guys. Oh yeah! We named the penguin, PANTATZ! And Nana, abuse it. SEXUALLY ABUSE IT xD then we were suppose to go to Perdana Park but its close so Nana told us to go to cybercity. We went there, my friends made me carry Pantatz and told me to wait at the basketball court. I WAS STANDING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE COURT ALONE WITH PANTATZ IN MY ARMS..so..I waited, they asked me to turned around, THE MOST AMAZING THING EVER! Nana BAKED ME A CAKE! :'D They sang happy birthday to me..and so there the senior pjs saw us..haha! We ate the cake in the middle of the court, MAN IT WAS AWESOME! 

And also today, I got a mystery present from somebody, well two person. Okay, its not a mystery anymore xD Guess what? A PENGUIN GLOBE! From Aina and Shasha. Awwwwhhhhh! :'D and owh, not forgetting, Afiq bought me a slice of secret recipe's cake. NomNomNom! ♥

I feel like crying. Tears of joy, happiness..I'm so blessed to have such friends like them. I love you guys so so much! ♥♥♥

Here's Pantatz! :'D

Ze Penguin Globe from Aina and Shasha :)

Till the next post. Much love ♥

~Cheers

Another one from my poetry archive ^.^

This was written on 9.17.2010.

You're the One For Me

Can you feel this heart beat?

The sound of happiness,

I'm feeling up the heat, 

There is no sadness.

Your smile made my day,

Keeps my worries at bay,

Deep in my heart,

You are all that I feel.

When I close my eyes,

You are all that I can see,

Deep in my thoughts,

You're the one for me.

Well, looks like someone is in love in this poem? Trust me, it wasn't me. Wait..it was written last year..when I was with, I prefer not to mention that person's name. Ah yes, I might..I said -might- be in love when I wrote this poem.

Till the next post

~cheers

another from my poem archive :)

This was written on the 5.21.2011

Heartache

Laying on the grassy field,

Staring at the sky so blue,

Tracing invisible hearts,

Heartache dwells in me.

As I close my eyes,

Feels the wind blowing,

As this heartache grows,

I'm damned to be hurt.

Opening this eyes,

Fill with agony and pain,

Stood up and stare,

Spread my arms wide.

As I feel the wind,

Blowing through my face,

I clenched my teeth,

Throw my fist into the air,

I cursed myself for being alive.

This heartache hurts so much,

Feeling the pain in my veins,

Look forward to nothing,

I fucked up everything.

Okay, when I read this poem back, its kind of a suicide-like kind of poem? O.O

What happened to me back in May? I remembered that I was really depressed but the reason was a bit blurry. Now it makes me wonder..why..

Till the next post

~cheers

JACEEEEEE!!! what happen to you? o.o xD

*shouts* HERRRROOOOOOWWWWWWW!!! (well sorry for my ADHD moment, I haven't been on here in while. I beg thy mercy xD) So the inside scoop? The goss? The 411? TELL ME! Oh wait, no, I SHOULD TELL YOU! (sorry ADHD moment again..hey! don't blame me, i'm hyper, I just ate like ASDFGHJKL bars of chocolates) Okay, I'm weird, nuff' said. So, lets begin :)

Firstly, tomorrow is the third week of the 2nd semester of my first year degree in my 16 years of education. Why 16? Because I start going to school, wait no, pre-school when I was 4 years old, more like a nursery though but there are some learning during those days..ah yes *nods nods* Oh! Dad and sister just got home from megalong, yeah they went to watch Transformer. I'm waiting for my other sister to come back next week from Keningau so I can watch with her *nods nods* 

Secondly, guess who's the P.KO for this semester? Yours truly :) I'm still in hesitation though but I will try my best to do my job. This semester will be very busy, well in my prediction though..wait NO! Not prediction anymore, REALITY! Hahahahahaahaha! Ah well, life fucked us all aye? No one dies a virgin? LOL at that statement but somewhat seems to be true. So how will I cope? All I need is dedication, trust and faith in myself and in God. Another problem though, I'm somewhat a LAZY TWAT! Seriously, no shizz. Don't believe? Ask my MUM :D

Thirdly, my hair is short! How short? A picture will be the prove..well not a picture..pictures :) yep, that sounds right. The reason why I want my hair to be short, is because, gah! The heat nowadays, whoa! HOT! If the policy allowed public exposure, I'll take off my shirt in public. Hahahahahaah! I CAN'T BELIEVE I JUST SAID THAT. I'm HOT, oh what now?! The weather temperature is hot. Thats the right statement. In class from monday to friday, ohmygoodnessofallthethingsthatisholy, soaking in sweat. I repeat, SOAKING IN BLOODY SWEAT! *glaring eyes*

This is BEFORE :)

And..AFTER :) with short bangs

Aights, moving on. Fourthly, well, life is not easy aight? Things go up..way up..way way up, then down..or DOWN TO THE CORE OF THE EARTH! o.o well that is scary ain't it? We have our own lives, no need to bug other people's life..WAIT WAIT WAIT! alright, I know bugging people's life is annoying, some say you're a busybody..but what is the person really care about you? I know..that got me thinking. So what I understand is..(this is just my opinion) you can bug people's life, but..don't bug too much aye? You don't want to be called as a stalker don't you? We all have limits, what to do? We're humans, and our limits is kind of one of our life challenges. 

and owh! Lastly, my latest 411! I'm addicted to PENGUINS!! AHHH! THEY'RE SO ADORABLE! (like me..cheh! puji diri sendiri)

My penguin whom I called, Mr. Bubbles. Love :)

I'm done for today :) Till the next post (I hope)

~Cheers <3

Life Plan

So I was thinking, after I get my degree work for 5 to 10 years, then something came into my head. I planned that I want to adopt a baby girl. I know this plan might be crazy for a young girl like me, it might be immature but this is what I want in my life. I want to adopt a baby girl and named her Sapphire. Its a greek name which means Deep Blue, a gemstone name. I've been admiring that name since 2 years ago. But my mom said, the future is unpredictable, you might get married or not, God's will. A question though. How am I going to get marry if I'm well..not straight? Oh yeah, my mom doesn't know that. Hmm, but I still want a baby girl though. Lets just see what happen then.

this came out suddenly...

I forgot WHAT I wrote on my notebook..whoa..memory loss there.. It's not a poem though but its kinda like expressing my emotions but in a long sentence way. Weird aye? So..here it goes..


The truth is...

I am a lonely girl who desires to love someone and be loved by that someone.

A girl with a crack across her heart. She doesn't want attention, she just want...

A moment that she could make it last forever,

A moment where she wants to be with a person she truly love,

A moment where she can put an unpretentiousness smile on her face,

A moment where she can treasure it forever.

As she sat down alone,

Virgin tears falls down from her eyes,

Tears of loneliness,

Tears of a shattered heart.

She waits for the day to come,

but still, nothing.

She whispered to herself,

"That day will never come, it doesn't exist".

She sat alone, 

looking down,

as closes her eyes,

feels the wind around her,

looking up to the sky slowly opens her eyes and weakly breaths out...

"Goodbye World"

Then she lay there...breathless...

I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER, I SCRIBBLE THESE WORDS IN MY NOTEBOOK O.O

What happen when you finished your literature test early xD

So today was our literature test, it was a 2 hours test, 2 essays. So as usual, finished the essay..but this time it was an hour early. I was looking out the window though, suddenly someone came into my mind. Not going to say who, but I have been liking this person for quite sometime. I was scribbling some stuff on my other paper, when I realized it, I was writing a poem because of that particular person. The poem goes like this..

You Are My Angel

Sitting here thinking,

My heart is sinking,

Looking out the window,

You came into my mind.

A smile were put on this face,

A feeling of an ace,

Thinking of you makes me calm,

Don't ever leave my mind.

A feeling that I feel,

My wounds are healed,

You made this possible,

I'm grateful for meeting you.

Talking to you is all I want,

Being with you is all I need,

Uttering these words from my heart,

You are my angel.

I gave away my first kiss to the wrong person. Stupid aye? :/

So the story begins when I met this girl on facebook, well she added me first. I don't really know her though and neither do she know me. And we chat on facebook last year and trade numbers. First I thought, who is this girl? I asked my friends if they know her and the answer was NO. *facepalm* We text and text, talked on the phone and somehow, who knows who like who? Major confusion about that. Sorry. She says she likes me. I was like "okay" then I thought, Jaceyy, just go with the flow. For me, she's a very 'manja' person, let me talk this part in bahasa: sikit-sikit mau merajuk, dah dipujuk, masi merajuk. So I have to ring her and calm her down. Okay, what happen was last night, she text me suddenly and said she wants to go out and have a drink. I said okay then meet up at Vertigo (seriously wants to bring my friends there after our allowance are out coz that place is EPIC). She brought some friends with her and I brought my cousin along. So we meet up at Vertigo, I have to admit this, when I saw her with her outfit>>> *jawdrop* whoa! Sexy! Yeah, I'm the dirty thoughts behind your mind. She was wearing this kinda tube dress, and her bazookas were half revealing. *shakes head then slap face* Jaceyy! Focus! We enter the bistro, holding each other's hand, sit down and 2 jugs of beer. Yum! The atmosphere was epic! The music, I can say you can totally shake what your mama gave ya! Yes, seriously. So after couple of glasses and conversations then she suddenly look at me and said "I want a kiss". God knows how I feel at that time, my face were like this O.o then I said to her "What? Wait, you mean now?" Then she said seriously "Yes, now. Here" Astaga! In front of my cousin again that, they don't know that I'm not straight! Geez! Her friends pun were looking at me. I was seriously shy at that time, she leans close to me, closes her eyes and waiting for me to kiss her. Oh hell no, both of my cousins were beside me, looking at me confused. Then I said to her, "later la, not here" My gosh she's very demanding, "No, I want here now." My heart was seriously beating fast! She was really demanding so I bring her to a corner of the place. She leans on the world, looking at my eyes. Gosh woman, I'm not going to do you, its just a kiss. Yes, a kiss, thats what I thought it was. Still I was still shy and then again she said, "please". Ah okay! I lean close to her, I kissed her, like I said, I thought it was just a KISS. BUT IT WASN'T! She french kissed me!! AAHHMAIGOSHHHH!!! Twas so awkward! To be honest, I did enjoy it a bit but it was really awkward! I can feel her tongue..gah! Nevermind! See the picture there? Thats how we kissed and it was a 5 second thing. But my favourite part is after we kissed, I hold her close to me, she lays on my chest and I lay on her shoulder, kissed her shoulder again. Those moment, as if we're a couple. FYI we're not and I think I won't be seeing her again.

*sigh* I feel upset giving away my first kiss to her. Because I think that I won't be seeing her again. I don't know. She seemed not interested in being with me and I feel so awkward being with her. But she's kinda straight though. I don't think she wants to be with me. But her friend said "she likes you, go dance with her" not to mention, her friend is also demanding. You don't force people to do something that they don't want to. Haha! *sigh* depends on her then, if she wants to text, text and if she doesn't want then its up to her. I'm always up for another outing but not another kiss. Major awkwardness! 

My recent poem that I recently write :)T

Sitting Here Feeling Empty

In this cold surrounding,

Thinking about fighting,

The pain is excruciating,

I always end up losing.

Wondering what went wrong,

Making you say goodbye,

That word hurts my soul,

This is all a foul.

Its breaking me down more,

When you're not here,

Knowing that you'll never be back,

Leaving me here, broken.

I have nothing to say,

Just remembering the happy times,

Without you then its just me,

Sitting here feeling empty.

omg! Its been a long time Mr.Blog :P

Pew pew! OMG! when is the last time I write a blog? *looks around* umm..nah, nevermind. So new year aye? Hmm..lots of changes I presume? New class..new attitude..new hair? Yes new hair. How new? My emo bangs is gone..now its all short. My sister said from an emo to a korean and she kept calling me Asian. Wtf sis? I am an asian, you look MORE asian! :P But I miss my emo hair though..I wonder if it could grow back before TESL night..hehe. Oh by the way, I wrote another poem, a depressing poem in fact, I'll post it later :) xx